Sum Dum Hums

beside me is a mirror.yes we have a full length mirror in the study.inilah sbbnya sgt menakutkan ble online alone tgh2 mlm.anyway.constantly looking into the mirror.what to see ah? i see these dark circles under my eyes.i look lousy.had this mean cold yesterday.bgn awl sgt mandi then sneezed all day.didnt help that i felt all really mushy inside.god help me with this heartache.so goodnight n went to bed.my face worked hard all night n i woke up all swolen.thk u lah.

school is starting in 3 days.less.studio work tak usik lg.structure x study lg.like, well done shakirah.

somebody ruined my hols.i got over this guy 2 years ago.so why am i back at point A? i am so pathetic.miserable.frustrated.everything in between.sewaktu dengannya.i hang my head.i screw my hair.i talk to the mirror.im like’ "so? SO? we’ll see sape yg bertahan.." dude.i really need to call someone.

i thought i was senseless enough.but this really hurts.

so thank you.

amboi2 korg..asl tajuk relationship wise jer bnyk plak komen..tsk tsk tsk..

oh well.happy to inform that the crush i was bragging yada yada about has officially ended.not final yet still on the way.actually it happened just a day after my last entry.pathetic kan? its always like dat *sigh*.you finally talk to someone about it and then the feeling totally goes away.goes to show how your life works eh? we are still on friendly terms - as usual, just like before.no new guy on the scene though.ill be halting my stalker activities in the meantime.so guys,u can all sleep sound tonight..

3rd day of holiday already.adoii hv to finally start on my homeworks..sgt bnyk! sume pun sgt elaborate..im still sleepy from last night’s designing..need more sleep! ive been looking older these few days..seems like i hv wrinkles under the eyes..the ones i get after staying up u knoe? and those pimple scars are far from done..haa yg ni akibat minggu site analysis ari tuh..damn these late nights..these holidays should make up all those lost sleep tho.wawawa..with boys currently out of the picture,i think i’ll dream of cats.

what did i mean by happy to inform eh?

sgt seksa apabila anda amat menyukai seseorang itu dalam diam..

wah..sounds like sumthin pure a guy wud say eh? yeah i know a guy who sounds just like that..berkenaan dgn tajuk di atas however; waaaaaahh..sgt minat seseorang!! kenapa dia tidak wujud weekend nih?!! i want to see him again laa!!

yeah..dis kind of feeling u only get when your goin through a crush..i discussed this with my roomate the other day..i was goin all crazy in our room sayin "i nak dia! i nak dia!"..my friend just went, "hey shak, what happens if he’s a real potential one ah? what if he happens to like u too?"..i flashed a big smile n said "then i nak! i nak!" ..a few dances in front of the mirror lalala then the mood changed, "u knoe wut, u usually only go this crazy when u love someone from afar..when u finally get the guy it takes a turn n becomes mellow n the ever burning love u had before actually fades away.."

..n that is why we change our crushes so often..

ooooo..sgt serius gitu..one relationship i had, the courting phase was really fast, suddenly i realised i had already accepted n now i was actually somebody’s girlfriend..the air around me somehow felt different..i had to be reminded, err..when did this happen again? had to adjust real quick n had to accept that u were now a half of something..ish..for the whole relationship i admit i was in love but always wondering, why was i in love in the first place again?..so broke that one off..crushes in my opinion are more exciting..u watch from a far..u get that tingling feeling, u stalk the guy, u get butterflies in the stomach n u really take care of your appearance haha..when i was in the relationship, there was this period when i didnt care how i looked coz now i actually belonged to someone n it wont matter if i was pretty or ugly..haha, HE needed me.

aiyaa..i so wanna see him right now..(n yes,from afar is fine thank you..) but u knoe wut..if this guy really has potential just like my roomie said, then truthfully here i admit, ill accept him lalalalala~ IM SO IN LOVE~!!! dont get this wrong la..i do want to be in a relationship apa..as far as the crush thing goes, we’ll just have to wait n see la kan, wont we?

keep on wondering who ok.muahahaha~

week yg sgt busy. slept at 4 for three days straight. next night at 5 and the next night at 3. tiring week huhu..rs mcm nak mkn sume org! nasib baik dah abis, had aidiladha hols in the weekend and a big zit from all that lack of sleep..terima kasih la

premonitions ruled my week..eh ke intuitions? all week long had this feeling that you were absolutely sure about sumthin..pnah rs tak? last time aku rs feeling ni time sketch competition kelas graphics dlu..dr time aku sketch tu aku da rs nak mng..eceh..padahal winner dier akan announce next week..gle psychic ar aku!! menang buku rm40 u knoe! ok ok. cerita minggu ni plak..rabu, busiest day of the week, had leadership class at night (gelak la gelak, klas ni mmg xde function pun..) had this feeling since the night before..time gosok2 bj tu ader teringt.."mesti mlm ni aku yg kna wat impromptu..hmmmm.." wahahaha..sah mmg aku yg kna public speakin mlm tu..haha..xdela glabah sbb dah emotionally prepared kan..yeah he he

jumaat plak..ader site analysis presentation..aku da mangat dah nak present..site analysis mmg best present..bole cipta bermcm2 masalah yg actually tak prnah wujud pun kat site tu..cuma mcm best bile present la..skali mdm suro kurgkan presenters sabo jela..xdptla present..ptg tu kna pilih site..sume dah cuak gle sbb site group lain mcm tak best..dahla pnat wat analysis site 2 xkan ttiba kna amik site 1 plak??!! mdm ar ttiba suro share2 site plak..mn tak nangis..site 1 tak bes..site 2 (site ktorg) sgt bes..sgt flat..sgt ramai penduduk..dan sgt chantek..site 3..hish..ni xtau la apa nak ckp..slope tinggi2..flat land choet2 jer..mane aku nak propose building nyer?? mayb sum ppl mmg ske site camnih, tp kalo bg kat aku sure aku terjun tingkat 20..so kire site 3 mmg sah xkan bes punyer la..haha..so ktorg cabutla nm..jeng jeng jeng..aku dpt site 2 woohoo~!! ~lompat~lompat~..aku lah architect plg bahagia kat dunia..heh, padahal aku dah rs dah yg aku mmg akan dpt site 2, INTUISI INTUISI, time cabut undi tu mmg rilek abis..haha..aderla lg 1 insiden intuisi2 nih tp aku luperla amende..so mesti x penting sgt..kot..bgitulah..minggu yg menyeksakan juga membahagiakan..aik? nape bahagia plak? ntahla.sekian.